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The sound of silence

Couple of days I saw a video of a guy talking in a sort of conference and he was saying many different things but the one that meant the most to me was about the “sound of silence”. It may be confusing at first but it’s true, sometimes silence can be as loud as music you just have to be willing to listen to it. Most of the times when we are doing nothing or waiting for something or even just have an empty moment we either watch the phone or put some music to pass the time and I’m not saying it’s wrong, we do that to keep the mind busy on something.

The thing is sometimes we need some time of just doing nothing and let the mind wander around, it’s during those times when we let our mind completely free that we realize most of the things, it’s then that most of the ideas pop up.

I know sometimes it’s scary or we are “not used” to it and it’s way easier to just pretend to be doing something. For as weird as it may sound, it’s actually hard to sit there and actually do nothing apart from thinking but it’s extremely relaxing and helpful. 

Being alone with our mind and thoughts can be really scary but that’s it, they are our thoughts and our mind and we have to be ok with them somehow.

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State of mind

Just had a really nice couple of weeks, totally sarcastic, in which stuff happened and as always when something bad happens in life we kind of lose our balance, you enter a sort of limbo in which you’re not sure what is the right thing to do. 
So let me get this out first, most of the times there isn’t a “right” choice, just different choices.

In my case in the past couple of weeks I “lost” the person who used to help me in these occasions, the person who helped me maintain my balance no matter what or who helped me give my life something similar to a direction. 

It was our decision, we talked it through and realized it was the right choice to make in this situation, it started just like “couple problems” but while talking turned out that most of it was because of me, because of my incapability of addressing few problems in my life. 

I mean yes I’m really sad but I know it was the right thing to do for both our well being. That being said the last couple of days have been pretty rough and, for as much as it pains me, it’s exactly in these moments that I know I have to do this on my own.

Several times I thought the usual “I really whish she was here to talk” because she knows me and god she is smart. It’s exactly in these moments, where you feel helpless, worthless and never enough that you should be brave enough to not rely on anyone. Of course goes without saying that these are the hardest time to do so.

Plus, in my case this is what lead me here anyway and I really need to sort it out; at first I was thinking “so I can go back to her and say sorry” but that’s not it, it’s more like I need to solve this “so I can feel good again and then I can properly apologize and say thanks”. 

What I’m saying is, and it probably sounds really egoistic, I’m not doing this to get back with her, I want to do this for myself and when I’m in a better state of mind I’ll see what happens.

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Helping hand

I’m here today to tell you it’s ok to need help sometimes, it’s totally fine and sooner or later it will happen! Take it from a random guy on the internet who often feels like that but even more often its way to stubborn to admit it.

But also take it from a guy who went quite a few times to a psicologist in the past and really liked it while being incredibly skeptic at first. I mean I guess my idea at first was that only people with real problem should go but hey, everyone has its own demons. Whatever your problems may be, big or small, it’s always helpful to talk with a person completely outside of your life who doesn’t know you but who kind of studied this things and would be able to guide you through your thoughts. Someone who you can freely talk to and who you really don’t have to impress.

Or just be like me, way to stubborn and wanting to solve everything by  himself. Up to you, really.

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New Year

“You`re not good at taking decisions” I`ve been told a few days ago and it`s true, no, to be honest that`s literally spot on.
Couldn`t have described myself in a better way, I`m always super insecure and find always super hard settling in either one path or the other.
Thing is there`s just so many of them, how can I now which one is the “good” one?
Unluckily the answer is you can`t, at least most of the time, but you still have to choose.
Few weeks ago I came back home in Italy after 2 awesome, and very intense years and I was kinda planning to settle here for a little bit, organise life a little bit and stuff.
Came back from London of course where I asked my old workplace if they “wanted me back” but since I got no answers I went back to italy, started to plan what I would be doing for the next few months and you know I was just starting to like the idea of me being home doing whatever but being home. And given how hard is taking decisions for me I was pretty satisfied moving towards something.
Of course yesterday morning my old workplace sent me a mail saying they didn`t see my message and saying that if I`m still interested they are still hiring and we could arrange a meeting or something.
Have to specify, this wouldn`t assure me the job, it`s still a maybe but I`m pretty confident that If I went to this meeting/trial I`d be hired.
(I`m deliberately leaving outside of this decision my girlfriend but that`s a complete different pair of sleeves)
This is mostly why I find so hard taking decisions, it takes so much time and as soon as I`m closer to one something else pops up.
Yes, I could just say no but I really do love London and it wouldn`t be for a long time and yes, I could just say yes cause I`d love to but it`s not a sure thing and most of all am I doing this just because is the “safe choice”?
I know I ask way to many questions and as someone said “it`s so easy I don`t even have to take a decision”, maybe it really is and I`m just focusing too much on the details and not seeing the bigger picture.
On the other side I`ve got a few ideas I`d like to pursue while being in Italy but they`re not running anywhere and during the time I`ve been back I`ve done nothing to get closer to them so I might aswell do someting usefull in the next months and save some money.
In the end it is an easier choice than it seems, I`m just scared to take it.

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Being lost and other stuff

There is something im missing, there must be.

I know I said karma and the idea if you do something then something will come back.

And I also know that it doesn’t work within minutes! 

I’m not expecting that, I know it takes time on the other side I have no clue what I am supposed to do because everytime this week I’ve done something something bad/wrong happened straight away. Good intentions? Waking up way earlier to do stuff? Nope.

And to be honest I wansn’t even doung that because I wanted something in return just because I believed was the right thing.

I’m lost, honestly.

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Thursday thoughts

Change does not happen over night, unluckily.
It takes time and effort, sometimes more and sometimes less and usually the bigger the change the more it takes.
This, tho, shouldn`t scare us, this shouldn`t make us stop pursuing the change we want to achieve instead it should motivate us meaning that there is still lot to do and the work is not finished yt.
Usually when I`m not writing/posting it`s because I`m trying to fix/change something or there is something wrong in my life; let`s say there is something disturbing me and often I`m not noticing it as soon as it happen. When I notice it it takes effort to start changing it and of course it`s not easy.
So when it happens I see no reason in writing something because I`m not motivated, where is the point in keep on telling you guys to improve and all that stuff when I`m not? I`d rather wait, focus on the nuisance/mistake/whatever and, when I`m done and everything is fine again, write about it.
I imagine it would be really dumb and pointless to write about something while doing the opposite or write about something I don`t believe in.
I kind of got super lazy lately, not in a way that I`m doing nothing all day watching tv series, in a nicer way; I kept procastinating the more important stuff while “convincing” myself I was stil being productive writing and doing other secondary stuff. It`s not like I was doing nothing, I was still doing something usefull but in my head I was saying like “You know, it`s ok if you`re not doing this (which you should really need to start doing!) because in the mean time you are focusing on writing (which is still good but not really what you should be focusing right now) and I`m really good at this!
But today I actually managed to do both, not in a perfect way but you know, I set the ball rolling and we can start from here, I`m fine with it.

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Wednesday`s life update

Random life update time.
So if everyone has read a few of my post you`ll know I have a girlfriend, we love each other and it`s beautifull.
And we live in two different country.
I mean it`s bad but not that bad, we haven`t seen eah other in a month and a half ish but if everything goes as planned she`ll come visit me twice in October and November and for Christmas we`ll both go back to our families in Italy.
It`s sad because of course I do miss her but I`m loving the kind of relation we have and that makes it worth it, we boh love to travel around, mostly alone, so we have to accept compromise but you know it goes both ways.
I love it because she always takes out the best of me and push me to keep on improving, important note is that I`m not doing it for her but for me; I do love when she is proud of me, the feeling is great but it`s a plus we should do stuff because we want to not because someone wants us to.
Also, we have a lot of freedom as in she works a lot and I love having my space/time alone while not minding the phone so we are not spending the day just texting each other! To be honest every once in a while, she works in a hostel, the job takes most of her time and I`m kinda sad because she is not answering but then I realize that and I kinda feel dumb.
But anyway, it does take a lot of “effort” as it`s not an easy thing and to be honest again I wouldn`t wish this to anyone because the thing is I woulnd`t be happy with a normal/boring/seeing each other every single day and doing eveything together relationship; for a little bit? Yea but totally not on the long run.

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Friday night randomness

You know, last night I was kinda tired and just wanted to lay down watching films but I felt guilty so I grabbed all my remaining energy and went for a walk in the city centre, it`s not a huge city but not even that small so there were people walking araound like me and randomly I stumbled upon a group of guys playing music on the streets and they were honestly good, there was even a violin!
So I stood there for like half an hour and people kept coming and coming, they were playing songs I personally like, Lonely boy from The Black keys being one of them and I was already happy that way; then all of a sudden they started playing song I`m really attached too, “Free Fallin” by John Mayer then “I will wait” by Mumford & Sons and giving the final blow with “No diggity” by Ed Sheeran, there were many others but those 3 were the ones I remember most deeply of my time in London.
This, guys, just to say that life is random, not completely but you know, the most part is. And it`s pretty much impossible to know what is gonna happen. There`s a saying “You never know what is going to happen when you walk out of that door” and it`s true but hey, it does say when you walk out because if you don`t not much will happen. Not saying it is a bad thing it`s just you already know your “comfort zone”, that`s why we call it that way, it`s what outside that is unknown and surprising; sure it does take effort but if you`re willing too it gives so much back.
It doens`t take much, only that first little push cause ass soon as you do it you`ll notice it`s worth it.
Meanwhile I got left there with teary eyes and thankful for these 5 guys, a kiwi one, 2 australian, a german and an irish that decided forming a band would be fun.
Going to take the opportunity saying that if you have a dream, as weird as it could be, just follow it because there will always be a guy like me getting emotional for it.

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“Why do you bother?” I`ve been asked several times, why do you bother even tho you know no one is going to read? Or again it`s because you think you`re better?
“This” started as a way to communicate, it`s easier to write than to talk to people so that was the reason that pushed me, my girlfriend too suggested it and after a while I gave it a shot and gotta admit it does feel nice.
So no, I totally don`t think I`m better that anyone else! I found my mind get calmer while writing and I believe it`s a nice way to show people the experiences I`m going through.
It`s not like I think I`m smarter so I can teach people, that`s not me, i believe in self improvement tho and I`m mostly trying to motivate and push myself and if the meantime I`m able to “motivate” someone to make a change in is life well that just makes it all worth it.
It`s not like I`m writing to achieve something, just something I like and makes me feel better.
While writing to change and improve is ok it`ll be pointless if I say something and do something else so this place is also gonna be about my experience and travels.
So cheers guys if you wanna accompany me, promise it won`t be boring.

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So I`m here, arrived in Cork, Ireland this morning.

Hostel where I`ll be stayin looks nice, small and quite; kinda what I was looking for and it`s not right in the centre of the city which is good. I`ll see to get some pictures but I`m not that good taking them.
Anyway I`m still scared but you know, I`m here already and there isn`t really a going back so gotta take the best of this experience.
Thinking about it the “job” here is gonna be super easy and is not even gonna take a lot of time, I`m literally free to do whatever I want!
Thing is what is it? And sorry but “doing nothing all day watching films” doesn`t really count so I`m probably gonna look for a part-time thing to you know, get some money in the bank and after that I`ll see.
Today I was thinking that some side of us never really leave, I think if you don`t like something about yourself just work on it and change it; taking me as example it works but there are somethings that you can`t fully erase, they just get really small in a corner and that`s ok those good and bad things are what define us.
The thing that really matters, apart from you trying to improve, is how you react when they surface, will you just panic and let yourself down or keep going even if you`re passing a bad moment?