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Wanderlust’s bug

And when you weren’t thinking about it anymore, just busy thinking about something else he comes back, the traveling bug. It’s actually called Wanderlust, the need to travel. It’s kind of hard to explain but it’s almost a physical need to jump on a plane and explore.

You know, I came back from my fair share of travels and was kind of thinking if stayin home for a while but something happened and as soon as it happened I started thinking of moving again and the feeling, oh the feeling, it’s undefinable. It’s like a bug biting you slowly and slowly you start thinking where you could go next, which places you could visit and the excitement it’s just overflowing in you. 

To me, Wanderlust is the need to get out of my comfort zone, the excitement of entering a plane and the fear of the unknown, the knowing that soon I’ll be somewhere different.

It’s not automatic, I mean it’s not like oh I’d like to travel and puff you’re traveling, it takes effort of course, you gotta put time into it but it surely does pay off.

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The sound of silence

Couple of days I saw a video of a guy talking in a sort of conference and he was saying many different things but the one that meant the most to me was about the “sound of silence”. It may be confusing at first but it’s true, sometimes silence can be as loud as music you just have to be willing to listen to it. Most of the times when we are doing nothing or waiting for something or even just have an empty moment we either watch the phone or put some music to pass the time and I’m not saying it’s wrong, we do that to keep the mind busy on something.

The thing is sometimes we need some time of just doing nothing and let the mind wander around, it’s during those times when we let our mind completely free that we realize most of the things, it’s then that most of the ideas pop up.

I know sometimes it’s scary or we are “not used” to it and it’s way easier to just pretend to be doing something. For as weird as it may sound, it’s actually hard to sit there and actually do nothing apart from thinking but it’s extremely relaxing and helpful. 

Being alone with our mind and thoughts can be really scary but that’s it, they are our thoughts and our mind and we have to be ok with them somehow.

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State of mind

Just had a really nice couple of weeks, totally sarcastic, in which stuff happened and as always when something bad happens in life we kind of lose our balance, you enter a sort of limbo in which you’re not sure what is the right thing to do. 
So let me get this out first, most of the times there isn’t a “right” choice, just different choices.

In my case in the past couple of weeks I “lost” the person who used to help me in these occasions, the person who helped me maintain my balance no matter what or who helped me give my life something similar to a direction. 

It was our decision, we talked it through and realized it was the right choice to make in this situation, it started just like “couple problems” but while talking turned out that most of it was because of me, because of my incapability of addressing few problems in my life. 

I mean yes I’m really sad but I know it was the right thing to do for both our well being. That being said the last couple of days have been pretty rough and, for as much as it pains me, it’s exactly in these moments that I know I have to do this on my own.

Several times I thought the usual “I really whish she was here to talk” because she knows me and god she is smart. It’s exactly in these moments, where you feel helpless, worthless and never enough that you should be brave enough to not rely on anyone. Of course goes without saying that these are the hardest time to do so.

Plus, in my case this is what lead me here anyway and I really need to sort it out; at first I was thinking “so I can go back to her and say sorry” but that’s not it, it’s more like I need to solve this “so I can feel good again and then I can properly apologize and say thanks”. 

What I’m saying is, and it probably sounds really egoistic, I’m not doing this to get back with her, I want to do this for myself and when I’m in a better state of mind I’ll see what happens.

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Helping hand

I’m here today to tell you it’s ok to need help sometimes, it’s totally fine and sooner or later it will happen! Take it from a random guy on the internet who often feels like that but even more often its way to stubborn to admit it.

But also take it from a guy who went quite a few times to a psicologist in the past and really liked it while being incredibly skeptic at first. I mean I guess my idea at first was that only people with real problem should go but hey, everyone has its own demons. Whatever your problems may be, big or small, it’s always helpful to talk with a person completely outside of your life who doesn’t know you but who kind of studied this things and would be able to guide you through your thoughts. Someone who you can freely talk to and who you really don’t have to impress.

Or just be like me, way to stubborn and wanting to solve everything by  himself. Up to you, really.